A blonde-haired and sapphire-eyed man walked through the Alstreim Family’s Grand Library, learning about numerous things as the man took in its contents through soul force before proceeding to sit down, beginning to compile them, as well as digest them in his mind as he closed his eyes.
But at this particular moment, the man’s eyelids began to tremble unnaturally as teardrops started to fall without his control. His eyes shot wide open, intense sadness flashing through his eyes before it filled his expression, making him feel like his heart was almost torn apart.
"Why...?"
Only a sound of incomprehension echoed through his mouth as it remained agape with numerous complex emotions.
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"No!!!"
Davis screamed as his sapphire eyes dilated into tiny dots, his entire being becoming frozen as he let go of the grasp he had on the Karma Thread that connected him and Tina Roxley.
Yes, it was him who had shouted as it made his heart plunge into the abyss at this moment. His dilated pupils were staring at Tina Roxley, feeling his heart rapidly beat in pain and sorrow.
"..."
He couldn’t let out a word of disbelief even though his mouth remained agape that his main body had to do it and even shed a tear or two for it.
This kind of abnormality made him truly alarmed as he felt these weren’t his feelings!
There was no way he would feel such strong emotions to a woman he had only seen a few times!
But at the same time, he felt that he should not sever the Karma Thread. His instincts or something similar was screaming at him, telling him that he would come to deeply regret this action of severing the karma between them.
Perhaps that was why he shouted without even knowing why he did that, making him feel alarmed.
Nevertheless, Davis was aware of what he was doing. He wanted to try severing karma to see that if it would affect him in any way, just like these unknown and foreign emotions affecting him, and it really did. He found it hard to believe such a thing could exist.
"!!!"
Tina Roxley plunged towards the surface as she lost her balance, her legs becoming limp, her face looking ghastly pale as she experienced an otherworldly tremor in her heart and mind. Her lips trembled, wondering what happened to her just now?
What was that horrible feeling just now!? She couldn’t understand, nor did she want to comprehend it as her expression looked ghastly pale. She raised her head, looking at Davis as extreme emotions of profound longing filled her face.
It was almost like... she had forgotten this person exist for a particular moment to feel like an eternity had passed to wait for him.
Her body twitched as she moved in an instant, jumping on Davis as she clung to his waist tightly.
"I was wrong...! I was wrong!"
She cried as tears once again began to fall from her face as it stained Davis’s robes.
"I... don’t want to forget you! I can’t..."
Trembling as she held him, she poured out her feelings as she shook her head.
Davis remained inwardly shook by his own feelings of distance and his unnatural feelings of affection towards her. He could hear her words, but his mind was not processing it right now, only taking it within him to digest later.
"I love you... I truly love you... I am not lying. Please believe me." Tina Roxley’s lips still quivered as she was scared that he would leave her.
"I didn’t think you could really make me forget you... I thought you were going to kill me instead..."
Davis’s attention was caught at this moment as he lowered his head to look at her clinging to him, crying as she held him dearly as if he was her life.
Indeed, at that time, when Davis asked if he could make her forget him, she thought he was going to kill her as a form of release from her memories, She was prepared, but she didn’t think that he could truly make her forget him.
It was horrific and terrible. It was deeply sorrowful, making her feel like her heart was almost ripped apart.
Her life was already a mess while she had to kill her father for targeting her, but now, she had her newly made family, her uncle Aurelius low-key lusting after her for some unknown reason. She felt that it was better to die in his hands rather than living a miserable life. That’s why she had accepted, but if he could make her truly forget him, she’d rather not.
’Why...? Why is it always like this...?’ Tina Roxley trembled as she miserably cried. She felt like she had enough and clung to him as if he was his savior. No, she deeply wished that he would save her and make her happy, as it was seen in the divination.
She hated this life and wanted to experience the love she had seen in the divination that made her heart flutter and made her feel wonderful, even if it were mere images, because she took those images to her heart and imagined numerous adorable and loving scenarios with him, developing her feelings for him even though she didn’t see him.
Davis’s expression became difficult as she could feel her trembling and intense emotions as she kneeled and held him.
There was the feeling of wanting to make Tina Roxley his because of his unnatural feelings even though he knew that it didn’t belong to him in a sense. There was also the feeling of not wanting to be willful anymore, not wanting to disappoint his women as he knew he had done it in this past year.
He had never been so indecisive in his life that he didn’t know what to do with Tina Roxley.
Nevertheless, if he, who could feel mixed emotions about her, then what about Tina Roxley, who now confessed that she wanted to be accepted by him? What did she feel?
After a few moments of distress, he couldn’t help but ask.
"I tried to make you forget me, and you even thought I was going to kill you, the person you deeply loved..."
Hearing Alchemist Scythe finally talking to her in a soft tone, Tina Roxley trembled as she looked up, her amethyst eyes trembling in hope.
"Why don’t you blame me...?" Davis asked, feeling incredibly complex with these conflicting thoughts in his mind and heart, and perhaps the soul. She confessed instead of blaming him for making her feel like that.
He had already used the severing of karma on Mo Mingzhi, and at that time, she said it was better to die than experiencing that empty feeling.
It should be the same for Tina Roxley, so why didn’t she blame him or even attack him?
"I..." Tina Roxley’s lips curved as a gentle expression appeared on her face, "Just like how you don’t blame me for killing my father like others did in the Xuan Empire, I will not blame you for not understanding me. I will not blame you for doubting me or wanting to get rid of me as fate had already done us apart, but it didn’t leave us without giving us chances..."
"Fate allowed us to meet thrice. Even if I have to die by your hands, I will not let this chance go... not anymore!"
"Then why did you accept my proposal to make you forget about me...?"
"I will never force you as I know the pain of being forced..." Tina Roxley’s lips quivered as her amethyst eyes trembled, "I feel sorry for Master, but dying by your hands is truly a better option to end the miserable life I had..."
Davis felt a tremor as he subconsciously reached out his hands and helped her up. He raised one of his hands as he held her cheek, brushing her lush black hair with his fingers.
At this moment, Tina Roxley appeared extremely endearing to him that he wanted to lean and plant a lovable kiss on her cherry lips, but his guilt within for her and his other women didn’t allow him to do such a thing.
"I’m not worthy of your unconditional love..." He uttered, holding her shoulders as he pushed her from holding him.
However, Tina Roxley boldly held his wrists, "Whether you’re worthy of my unconditional love is something for me to decide, not yours or anyone else’s..."
Davis’s heart shook on hearing her words that he instantly wanted to deny her, "You falsely fell in love with me from seeing a divination that didn’t become true!"
"Then why did you scream ’no’, heart-wrenchingly?" Tina Roxley’s bosoms heaved, "Doesn’t that mean that you at least feel something for me in your heart!?"
"You...!"
Davis’s tongue was stuck, rarely not knowing what to say to her determined look. He became embarrassed as he didn’t think that she heard it amidst her disbelief.
"You and I were once fated." Tina Roxley bit her lips as she took a deep breath, her eyes remaining moist, "It’s the truth even if it deviated. I won’t let you or anyone tell me that it was wrong. I can’t let it become wrong...!"
Davis’s expression became mildly annoyed yet greatly moved at the same time. He absolutely didn’t like two conflicting emotions wrecking his heart and soul that he thought that the only way to end this was to kill Tina Roxley, but the moment he thought of that, something was screaming within him not to do it!
At this moment, he felt like ripping his heart out to check if it was still his and his alone.
He never liked being forced, and these feelings he had for her obviously felt forced out of a fairy tale, but if Tina Roxley’s words were true, then they were fated to be husband and wife before he somehow used Fallen Heaven to change that trajectory, and he couldn’t tell when it exactly changed.
He felt it was okay that the trajectory had changed, but why did he have to feel emotions that weren’t his? If this were the case, then would Fallen Heaven’s presence in his soul low-key tell him how he took the trajectory of fate differently each time he broke through?
Davis became inwardly shook by his own thoughts!